True Discussions - April Rozier

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Living with the Lies

Living with lies is actually quite exhausting. It is a constant battle between heart and mind. Your mind is telling you things like you’re not good enough, you’re not smart enough, you’re not cool enough. While your heart is saying "You are fearfully and wonderfully made."

For years I have battled with the lie that who I am is not good enough. I have run myself crazy living up to this lie - rejecting all things positive, truly accepting all things negative. Letting the world’s images, words, and character dictate how I live and, more importantly, how I love.

For me, living with lies has been like living blind. Not being able to see the light of truth, constantly surrounded by darkness, and pain. Always covering up one lie with another. Telling myself that I don't need anyone or anything to comfort me, because I am such a horrible person, I don't deserve it.

Living with lies becomes a way of life. It becomes so normal to you that when life, love, or joy actually come to you, you don't recognize it. You think you’re doing this amazing job of covering up your pain, when really everyone around you can see the hurt you feel. “Living with lies” is actually a contradiction: there is no way to actually LIVE with lies. Lies are death; they set out to kill, steal, and destroy all life. For years I have thought I was LIVING with lies, but now I see that I was really DYING with lies.

Living with the Truth

Living with the truth, has been just that – LIVING with the Truth. You see, I was not aware that I was not living, until I found the truth. Life with truth is free, and full. I no longer battle myself; instead I simply love myself. I love my eyes, my nose. I love my skin, and my curves.

I LOVE, and that in itself is amazing to me. When you believe lies, you are always thinking and living inwardly. But when you live with truth, it is easier to live – and love – outwardly. You are able to store up all joy, hope, and love, to share with others. Life becomes a lot brighter. The blinders are off, and you can see now.

Living with the truth is a daily challenge, but what I've discovered is that truth is a lot stronger than lies. Although it can sometimes seem that lies win most of the battles, we must remember that TRUTH wins the war.

My "TRUE" Statement:

Most of us search relentlessly thru life for freedom; freedom in our minds, our hearts, and our spirits..yet God has made it quite simple to find....freedom is found in truth. So when the chains of lies come to bind me, I look to truth to set me free.

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